It HAS taken a lot to confront this problem. In the past I've dealt with it with so much anger. Anger coming from being so hurt about it because I've taken it personally - like there is something wrong with me. I'm the kind of person that if you make me angry I yell, I throw things, I b*tch and then I'm done - I'm over it. On the other hand if you hurt me - I flip out. I honestly don't handle hurt well. There has really been nowhere for me to go about this. I've said before that I know it's kind of weird for me to be airing this on a bodybuilding forum of all places - I guess a lot of that comes from how many MEN are on here. Women tend to just say "that's gross" or sympathize with what I'm saying. To be able to get a male opinion of someone who doesn't know my fiance is helpful. I've always struggled with the thinking that "all men do it" and that was one of the things that was making me think something was wrong with ME and making me second guess my feelings about it. Not to mention, it's really helpful to get the opinions of people annoymously. If I talk to someone I know in "real life" I feel like they are going to judge me and look at me like "what's wrong with her?" if that makes sense. Airing a lot of this out has really, really helped me.
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