[Hawkwind]

Well...life took one hellz of a turn on me and it has taken me a couple weeks to cope. My visits here are still going to be a few and far between ... but I decided it was time to start a new journal.

So let's start off with one of my musings:

I had gotten quite used to life as "same shiet...different day"...but the day life tossed a "different shiet" day at me really got me.

I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia almost 20 years ago now...and quite honestly the first 7 years or so...I didn't believe my doctor and thought he was full of it. But fibromyalgia that is not dealt with has a way of rising up and taking a bite out of your proverbial a$$. I went on to face that biatch down and with it the constant testing for lupus and the 'side' diagnosis' of Reynaud's, IBS and myriad other irritating but small things.

I will say that I fell apart for a time when they told me they thought I had MS. I was scared silly...and actually grateful to find out it was lyme disease even though my recovery from the nerve damage and muscle wasting continues to this day.

So after all that you would think that opening a letter from my doctor in January that my TSH levels are a bit elevated and that suddenly my 'bad' cholesterol was slightly higher than normal for me wouldn't seem like such a serious issue...

Not with me...you see, I've read a bit about hypothyroid because all of the women in my husband's family are hypothyroid and my daughter and granddaughter's are genetically at risk. But I never thought in a million years that I would ever be hypothyroid...after all, I exercise regularly, eat very well and take dayumed good care of my body.

So what a shock to receive that news the day we found out my dear sister-of-my-heart only has a year...if we are lucky, due to a cancerous brain tumor.

At first I was tempted to put the hypothyroid issue on the back burner. After all...how important is that compared to losing someone you love dearly and needing/wanting to be there for them? But...as my ever active brain mulled things over in the late evenings I decided to start doing more in depth research about my 'new' condition...and all of a sudden things about my health and weight battles that have cropped up the past 4-5 months made sense in light of the diagnosis.

A week later I sat there with those test results in my shaking hands and called Kim back. What I had found out not only put a new light on some problems I've started to have (and their serious nature)...but the information scared the hellz outta me. I was in fact not on the verge of being hypothyroid. I am hypothyroid and herbal remedies, Chinese medicine, or alternative therapy's of any sort are not going to help me out. I had no choice but to get started on hormone therapy for my thyroid.

Continued...