[Mrbobcat]

I need some input guys. I got my LPN license about 4 months ago and finally got a job a few weeks ago. Well, it did'nt work out. I got trained in orientation for 5 days and thought I was ready to go on my own, except for maybe some of the records, orders, ect. They called me in for another day (I was supposed to get 7 days of orientation) and said they feel I need some more training, but they can't afford to since their budget is shot. I did make a couple minor errors and said a couple wrong responses to the nurse who was training me (although she has no compassion and has been in nursing for 34 years). They decided to keep me on as PRN (as needed), but thats a misnomer as they told me to work somewhere else for a month or 2 and then decide if I want to go back or maybe they will have some money in a few weeks and keep calling back. I've had half a dozen interviews and only 2 offers. The other one said they would let me know, but I'm still waiting. I think my problem is I appear unmotivated as I am very quiet and laid-back. Thats just how I am. I work at a factory part-time right now. I was working PT, went to FT, back to PT for this job, so I think I pissed them off and don't want to ask to go back to FT right away and hopefully can find something in the health care field. Problem is I've applied at about all the local places. Every place wants experience, but how can you get it if no one will hire you?
Even if I went back to the factory FT, I would still be about $300 short a month working 40 hours. They are working a lot of OT right now and I would probly be about $100 over a month with that, but you can't count on it. Plus my student loans are gonna start next month and thats going to be like a large car payment. I don't know what to do. If I did'nt have a large credit card debt I would probly be ok. This is my third degree (CAD, Accounting) and I'm afraid my ex may be right (another degree with nothing to show for it). I'm feeling sort of depressed right now after losing her a couple months ago, hurting my shoulder, bills keep adding up, house needs repairs, ect.
Anyway here is some options I came up with: 1. Look for a job nationwide (though I have no money to travel), so maybe in a nearby large city likeToledo, Lima, or Columbus. 2. Join the army in healthcare related field, although not sure if they would take me with my shoulder and had asthma, but last episode was over 30 years ago and I'm pushing the upper age limit. 3. Sell the house and move in with my sister if she would let me. She's moving right now, but its not a good time of year to sell, plus the house needs a lot of work to get anything decent out of it. 4. Get a job driving a truck or bar tending or something, although I don't like the idea of long-haul driving as I have a couple cats to care for. 5. Follow my ex-brother in-laws lead and just end it all. I know not a good idea. I don't think I could do it and don't want to go "down below", but it has crossed my mind...
There has to be a reason for living. I just want my gf back, a decent job, pay my bills, maybe a new car in a few years. Is that too much to ask? I can't see wasting my life in the factory and don't think my shoulders can take it anyway as the one doctor thinks I have some kind of inflammatory disease, but I can't afford to get tests to find out. Any advice, anything?