Just to update you, cause you have all been great in giving your insight.
One of you mentioned talking with a therapist. I dont really believe in or trust them. However i do believe in hypnotherapy. So I have been using self hypnosis to bring peace to my thoughts. Also I have been using some techniques from , whats called cognative therapy.the concept of recognizing and changing negetive thought and using affermations.
The biggest change is I sat down with my ole man and just told him what had been going on inside me and my thoughts and how upset I have been making myself.
I LOVE MY MAN He couldn't have been more supportive and understanding. He helped me to explore the root of the insecurity in such a loving way. I do still have somework to do on the issue but I feel a thousand times better. And Kinda silly for letting it burn on my brain.
I was a lil embarassed to bring the subject up here. but now I am so glad I did.
THANKS EVERYONE!!!!