[ams33]

i know it s long but that s how i honestly feel :

no one knows how i am deppressed , i feel dizziness and god knows , am speachless , honestly , although i was thought that a man should not cry , i cried once when i read the letter of a prisoner in guantanamo ,that prisoner was not a terrorist , nor was charged of any crime , yet they kept him in prison for 4 years telling him everyday that u ll be out the next day , this man is not strange , he is : sami al hajj , the aljazeera chanel camera-man , when i read his letter entitled : what have i done wrong , i began to cry , couldnt stop .........i felt i was suffocating , my dream was to go the states , i used to love the american lifestlyle from all my heart , i was so much into everything american , i belived in their democracy and freedom of opinion , human rights and all those stuff ....i was shocked when i saw the wtc attacks , it was like a piece of me has been attacked , i was so angry at al-qaeda(and still), i hoped that the reaction would be as the label , at least humanistic , i used to belive tha americans tolerate all religions , and dont have a prob with anyone ...that s what i thought and that s why i chosed evertything american , from education to music to ...etc ....i cant till now pass the schock from the opinions i ve heard so far ....anything muslim do , they just say : beheading people is more violent ...like i justified it in the 1st place ....bombing ppl and stuff is terrorism ,....no one here understand what muslims are passing through , bec they live happily with a wealth and everything they want ....palestinians were excuted from their land , killed by tanks and apachis .....and jews from : russia , uk , usa france , poland , were brought just because : they have the right to exist ....israeli tanks are destroying homes and killing childrens since 1948 , palestinians didnt invade no one s land ...they were in their homes till israelis came ....a palestinian young man whom his father was killed , his mother is suffering from disease , they banned him from working ....he had no tanks no one to protect him , so he sacrified by his own body , life after all that is not a human life ...and when he did it ,the whole world who watched his whole family dying a minute ago , the whole world called him simply : a terrorist .....there was no al-qaeda in iraq nor anything related to it in saddams days , but seems americans dont need any excuse : first , they claimed to protect kuwait , and second war to liberate iraqi people ....and when someone who s land was occupied and resist he is again called : a terrorist , they forgot even that in the 1st place it s not their land ....everyday a new story is heard womens raped , prisoners most of them re normal citizens are tortured .....it s just normal ....and when someone is beheaded the whole world gets angry and more hate towrds arabs is generated ...guys be4 u continue let me tell u something : a lot of muslims were beheaded by those groups , in jordan a blast killed muslims ...and in islam the 2nd worst sin is killing a muslim,and killing a muslim with no reason makes u a non-muslim , so how can u tell that those re fanatic muslims they re not muslims in the 1st place although they have muslim names .......russia invaded afghanistan , the afghani suffered , no one cared ....chechenya was invaded and more than half of it s ppl were excuted .....bosnia ....kosova.....india invaded kashmir ...and the circle goes on and on and the victim is always : muslims ....i am not saying that what fanatics do is justifiable am strictly against it , but the world left them no choice ......deprresed , oppressed and stereotyped that s how muslims feel ....oppressed by their rulers whom the US support .....the whole world is against them ...and whenver they wanna talk express their anger they re simply called : terrorist ..........that s why i cry everyday , hurted by what i hear and see , asking when all of this will end , when justice will prevail ....what a world we r living in ......what hopes re left after now , what dreams .....what ?..........