[DeadLift21]

As some of you know, I was sick friday before last, but I still went out and had a hard work out. Well, my condition worsened (though may not be neccessarily due to working out alone) and I was bed ridden and feeling week.

Then last thursday was my last day of my job. The job market aint doing great here, so I am looking at minimum of 1 month and probably around 2 months of waiting time before I get a decent job.

Plus the landlord sent a note saying we gotta move out, so I am busy looking for another apartment, with a keen eye on my bank account cause my savings are depleting by the day and I still have 2 or 3 months to survive without an incoming pay check. And the property prices have gone up in Singapore and all the new houses I am looking at are 1.6 to 2x more expensive than the current ones.

I haven't been able to avoid being mentally stressed about these things and I have fallen to over eating junk food, sleeping irregular hours for the last 1 week. I have also not taken any of my supplements and needless to say, I have not seen the gym for 10 days. My health which I *think* is my top priority in life suddenly seems to have taken a back seat amidst all these ongoing issues. I even had to coax myself last 2-3 days to type this message out.

I feel sad to see my muscles deplete, it's almost like losing a child or a pet.

I live in a different country from my parents and relatives etc and I dont really have a bunch of friends (was too busy in U to make friends, and then too busy in work after that) so I dont really have any strong support group that I goto.

So this is my post on BB4U to all you determined guys and gals out there who overcome the shhit in their lives to pursue their love for bodybuilding and fitness.